January 2019 By Anne Bachop
Last year at this time I spoke about power. My roles were of perceived powerlessness or power and the beliefs I held that powerlessness meant no control, only compliance—and power meant being in control, even manipulating to achieve success. This was the energy I grew up in, and it wasn’t necessarily unhealthy. Belief is only limiting when I believe that is all there is—that it is my only choice.
What do I choose for this New Year? How do I choose being in the moment, allowing the flow to take me to the next step? When do I decide to accept this path over another? Living in the present involves lots of questions, living in the unknown. And it also embraces those moment-to-moment, life-altering decisions that make me who I am.
Now the question becomes one of integration. Being present is not enough—it also means taking the present with me. This moment is sacred—one moment after the next. This moment is also infinite and embraces everything. That is why I find that the integration of the unknown and the choices I make is the secret behind continuing awareness.
When I open to more, I find miracles. I’m embracing the past through my experiences, knowledge and family. I’m encompassing the future through my faith, hope and love of the Mystery. I embrace the now in my connections and interconnections.
Integrating who I am and who I am becoming. It is within these boundaries of relationships and connections that I mature and outgrow limiting beliefs, releasing my patterns of deception. This is what turns my push of power into the gentle touch of I Am and it is Enough.
Owning my choices. Where do I deceive myself and others? Where do I defend and react? Where am I leaking my energy and skewing my intention? Oprah Winfrey calls the right to choose one’s own path “a sacred privilege.” The question then becomes, do I own my power? Do I choose to choose? My personal power is wielded only by me, but I have to choose it and the transformation it offers.
What is right here? Yes, I choose to see all I feel, and all I am. I choose to create a safe place for my Self and my feelings with acceptance and no judgment. I choose to integrate all I find in my safe space, and embrace the decisions I make to have relationships, or not, to take the risk, or not. I choose to become a butterfly every day, every moment. What is here now, in 2019? I choose to infuse every ordinary moment with the sacred touch of I am.