July / August 2018 Newsletter
Dear Friends,
I want to thank those of you who have returned our survey. It is extremely helpful to us to hear what it is that you need, and what will support you more. One thing I’ve heard is that you want more real-life healing experiences. I want to relate one such on-going client experience that I’ve had and the impact that it is having on both of us.
First, about me: I sometimes find myself ‘pushing’ in a healing. I want to effect change; I want to help; I, I, ay! Oops, I’m ‘pushing’, and I center back into my higher self and ground. I always hear Laurie Thorp’s voice in my head at that point: “Nothing to do; nowhere to go; just be here now.” Then I ask myself if I need to ‘push’ because sometimes that is warranted—and it’s not up to me. I often find myself pushing when I’m feeling ‘this is hard’, or ‘oh, boy, what do I do now’? Is it ‘hard’? Does it need to be ‘hard’? I’m getting better at tracking myself and getting curious.
I have this one client. When she first came to me she was feeling very down. She’d been abused emotionally all her life. She has cancer for twenty years now. The meds she is taking have the side effect of weakening her bones to the point of breaking. She’s nearly bent in two with spinal fractures. She has IBS, a kink in her esophagus causing her to choke on foods, and had no self-confidence or boundaries.
She first started doing healings with me about a year ago. The first thing she said was: “I have a good feeling about you. I trust you.” She also told me that she believed in miracles. We started seeing results almost immediately. She hasn’t had a broken bone since we began partnering together. The first six months were all about her and getting her physical situation looked after. Then we entered a new stage where she began working on relationships. Her confidence grew and she’s remade herself.
It’s only been the last few months that I’ve notice what really happens in our healings. When I give her a healing, her Core Star always rises up immediately because she trusts me; she trusts that I am doing her good. And when her Core Star expands I see her changing. I’m not the one who started holding Core Star. I was thinking ‘oh man, this is going to be hard’. And here she was feeling safe enough to allow her insides out and recreating reality. Amazing! I’ve been seeing her for a year, and she is not the same woman. She’s taught me a lot!
Now I see those big trucks with the DO NOT PUSH signs on them. It reminds me of my little client and I think: “Damn straight! Just hold Core Star!”
blessings,
Anne