By Anne E. Bachop
January 2020
Beginning a new year, a new decade, usually calls for reflection. As Angeles Arrien used to say, “What’s learnin’ you? What am I grateful for? ◊ What has inspired me? ◊ What challenged me?”
Rather than getting into my head about it all (thinking too much!) I tend to look for patterns—emotional patterns, energetic patterns—that have painted themselves over and through my life’s path this past year.
One of my big challenges has always been wanting to be ‘seen’. One of my passions is ‘knowing’ me, ‘being’ myself. It took decades to differentiate that challenge and desire into my own quest, rather than something I ‘expected’ (albeit unconsciously) to be reflected, received and returned by others.
This push/pull of wanting to be seen would be reflected in my own desire to ‘see’ myself—accepting all of me. That would include all my gifts as well as challenges. And ‘knowing’ myself? That would include feelings, hopes and dreams, as well as recognizing what is my story, and what is reality. What do I have the power to change, and what can I let go of?
I’ve seen this pattern in many things, as well as in my clients, this past year. This yearning to be seen, while being reminded to bring the energy back in to Self first. Reflect my Self first.
I want to be seen/understood by others. I see myself in all my glory and imperfection.
I want to be loved/appreciated by others. I love and appreciate all of me—my efforts, my successes, and my attempts.
I want to find joy and fulfillment in my relationships. I look at my searching and growth not as a burden, but as an adventure—a de-light-filled time of integrating the puzzle pieces of my life into one amazing wholeness.
As 2020 holds the promise of sharing ME with others, and strengthening those inter-connections, it helps to be reminded that the God Universe is gently holding me, as I hold myself and embrace others.